How can you be angry & have gratitude at the same time?
This question arose in a conversation I was having with a friend about 2 weeks ago. And ever since I've been thinking about it nonstop. And incase you are a "spark notes" type reader, I'll just skip to the answer now. The Answer: You Can't. It's absolutely impossible to be angry and have gratitude at the same time - we weren't created to feel angry & gracious at the same time. How can we? I've been trying to figure out a come back for the last 2 weeks. "Well you could be angry about..um..but grateful for...um..."
I was stuck and I kept hearing a distant chuckle from God who kept saying "Nope. Stop trying to figure it out. My design was made for you to be immensely grateful, and that alone." I was designed to be what? The words stuck out to me like a knife: "Immensely Grateful," how powerful is that? Immensely. Grateful.
Immensely: (adverb) to great extent; extremely.
Grateful: (adj) feeling/showing appreciation of kindness; thankful
ONE: Whether you believe it or not, the opportunity to be grateful is presented to us every single morning. The second you wake up in the morning is the start of a long list of things you can be grateful for. IE. You woke up to live another day. and if you're like me, the best part of your morning and something I'm constantly yelling "Thank You Jesus," out to is my Keurig. I'm immensely grateful for my morning coffee. Amen? Amen! -- But even the small things, like my morning coffee, was presented to me the moment I woke up. I show complete gratitude when taking that first sip. After all, that's what I was designed for: To be grateful, even for the small things. God will always hand you little things before he hands you the big stuff. It's not that he is testing you to see what you'll do with it. But why should we be blessed with abundance if we aren't showing gratitude towards the smaller things we have already received?
Two. During the last 2 weeks of trying to prove I can find something to be angry about all while feeling grateful, I found the quote above. I laughed, looked up and said "Ok God, I know. It's impossible." And yet I was also created to be super stubborn so I kept pushing along to be angry. Spark Notes: I didn't work. But along the way, something happened. I was faced with a difficult person and situation. And the situation was to get me to compromise my inner peace for someone else's bitterness. This sudden slap of the unexpected brought me to a stand still as I scratched my head thinking "where the heck did this come from?" I literally had no idea and was dumbfounded. A few years ago I would have reacted by lashing out and getting super defensive. But not now and not this time. That's the cool thing about Change - is growing and learning what NOT to do when the enemy is throwing stones at you.
I'll admit, I got angry and to be honest a little bit cocky for a minute. I laughed and said "SEE GOD! I'm pissed off, but I'm also grateful about everything." and then I remembered that God is sassy and his reply? "HaHa. No You aren't." -- He Got me again. I took a step back and thought about it for a minute. So here's the breakdown:
I wasn't angry because of the situation or person involved. I wasn't angry that I had a peaceful life and somebody was trying to disturb it. I wasn't angry. I just forgot how much gratitude I had. I forgot about the abundance of things God had presented to me. But why?
...Because when you are angry, that is the enemy winning. That is the enemy getting into your head and making you go into defense mode so that all you can think about is the fight. The Enemy wants you to fight back, He wants to pull you away from a gratitude filled heart. and when he pulls you away from a gratitude filled heart, he has pulled you away from yourself and your relationship with God. IE: He Wins.
And it's at this moment you need to take refuge in the shelter of God. Show complete gratitude towards the IMMENSE LOVE that God Provides for you on a daily without hesitation. God will always remind you that it's impossible to be Angry and have Gratitude at the same time. It's impossible to be hateful and loving at the same time. Take it from me, stop trying to find a reason to be angry or pissed off about a storm in your life. Walk towards what is appealing to you: Love, Gratitude, Peace, Mindfulness, & a Abundant Life. If you do that, you will not be shaken. How could you be?
"Love without Expecting, Love without Fear...Love, Love, Love"